So I just finished reading the most recent posts, and I found myself nodding my head as I read everything Elaina wrote. My biggest fear is that I am going to have to settle... to go to that "saftey school" I am applying to because I know I'll get in easily. Both of my sisters got into great schools, had excellent ACTS and gpas, and got scholarships. Trying to live up to them has been tough, especially this past year. Although around my house and school I put on a happy face as the girl who's finished her apps and is ready for the future, I am terrified. Every day I worry about... what if I Don't get in to that one school I've been leaning towards.... that school that both of my sisters got into? What if I am just not good enough?
What a question... its a rough thing to have on my mind all day. I try not to let it get to me, as my boyfriend straight out told me the other day as i was worrying, "You have no control anymore! The applications are in, they know you're interested in their school... you have no control over what happens from here." His comment was rough but helpful, and I try to stress a little less, if possible. Are any of you struggling with compared to and living up to sibling's expectations?
ps: i am on the phone with my boyfriend and read my post out loud, and he once again wanted to stress, "You really shouldn't worry about it." But its so hard not to worry.... well, he's only a junior... he'll understand more next year i guess. :)
